Post #2 - It's OK not to be OK

I have always been a very organised person and as such I had some plans in my head: finishing my MA by August 2020, going to London by September, keeping my current job and finding a new one there by the end of the year at the very latest. With covid, all of these were not meant to happen. Or at least, not the way I wanted.

After submitting my dissertation I needed a break. I never thought the pandemic was going to hit me mentally as hard as it did. At that point, I had not been happy at work for a long time and I wanted to leave as soon as possible. Moreover, I was far away from my family and I had no idea when I was going to be able to see them. What if anyone gets sick? What if it happens and I’m stuck here? I kept repeating to myself.

I couldn’t keep it up with so much pressure on my shoulders and neither could I leave my job at the moment. It was certainly irresponsible and selfish to even think about leaving a job while many people were losing theirs. Looking back, I know it is not either selfish nor irresponsible. On the contrary, it was just exactly what I needed to do to be able to breathe.

Obviously, I am only capable of seeing that now that I feel good, healed and happy.

What I did instead was pausing my studies. I was not able to get inspired or creative and I needed time off from the screen. However, the distance between me and my laptop didn’t last long. I’m used to working hard, giving my best every single time and fighting for what I want.

And that is what I did.

I created an Instagram account called @wearingmylanguage which I wanted to use as a means of communication to educate people about the importance of language within the fashion industry and the relation between verbal language and non-verbal fashion communication using storytelling that involved curiosities or facts. I curated a selection of pictures that I found interesting and relevant and wrote the captions in English and Spanish to reach a broader audience.