Post #6 - New job, new life... new me?

One would have thought that getting offered the job of their dreams would have made one feel extremely good, proud, over the moon... and that all the insecurities about my worth as a professional would have gone away. At the end of the day, I was the chosen one among more than 200 candidates.

Well, it wasn’t quite like that.

Being offered a dream job, in a dream city, in a company that I totally adore was not only a dream come true but a massive responsibility and a huge weight that I started feeling on my shoulders. The doubts and insecurities appeared as stronger as ever before and the first few questions that came to my mind were: What if I’m not good enough? What if they don’t like me? What if I don’t do the job as they expect ?

I obviously accepted the offer. It was time to pack my things and leave my job and my life in Liverpool behind. It was time for a new chapter.

I was leaving home. Once again.

It was not an easy decision to make but it was undoubtedly the one that I needed the most. After almost five years calling Liverpool my home, it was time to say see ya soon, luv.

Before leaving, I was contacted by the LJMU MasterPlan magazine team because Kayla told them my story and they thought it was worth sharing it with the rest of the alumni, professors and the potential new students. I was feeling shy and over the moon at the same time and I will forever be grateful to Kayla for believing in me since day one.

Post #5 - When is this going to end?

By the end of summer 2020, I was in a bad place mentally so I decided to ask for help. At first, it wasn’t an easy thing to get my head around but it was definitely the best I could have done. This pandemic has been brutal for everyone, but especially for young ambitious people who have seen how their wings have been chopped and their dreams have crashed.

My job became the epicentre of all my problems and it was the main reason why I felt so sad. I decided this had to change, so I started going to therapy. Around the same time I made this decision, I received an email inviting me to a phone interview for a position I applied for a month before.

My first thought was: This is a mistake, they got it wrong. It can’t be me who they want to talk to.

The position was English/Spanish Transcreator for Vestiaire Collective in Paris. Although the interview went pretty well, I was still negative towards it. After that first interview another one followed, and another one and... yes, another one.

Six interviews, a translation test and a few references collected after, I was offered the job.

Post #4 - Working hard pays off!

After a while, I realised that it was not the best time to try to gain a place in the fashion industry and I was about to give up. However, a couple of months later, and after attending a few webinars, seminars and getting a few online courses done, I got myself a 3 months internship at a fashion magazine as a fashion editor and news contributor.

I have always known I wanted to work in fashion because it is my passion, my dream and my motivation. However, I was never sure what exactly I wanted to do or in which department I wanted to work at. Once I started writing for Style Cartel, a London based online fashion, culture and beauty magazine, everything was crystal clear to me. I enjoyed writing and talking about fashion while giving my opinion and perspective - and people seemed to like it too! I ended up writing 10 articles for them which I collected in a personal online portfolio.

My highlight of those 3 months is e-meeting the girls behind HAREM London, a sustainable brand which mixes British and Turkish cultures. Today, I keep in contact with them and I have been invited to future shows in either London or Paris Fashion Week.